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Noun: a feeling of enthusiasm, interest, or commitment that makes somebody want to do something, or something that causes such a feeling

What does motivation mean to you?  I’ve been thinking about this a lot recently, because whatever it is, I haven’t got it!  I seem to have lost my mojo and I want it back again.

About three months ago I had a small stroke.  The previous 18 months had been emotionally and physically draining, but I had finally been successful in obtaining funding for my daughter to move into full-time care.  She was happily settled into her new accommodation and that very day I’d cleared the last of her stuff out of her old home and posted the keys back to Department of Housing.  I was really incensed that this had happened to me just when I should have been able to sit back, take a breath and relax back into my own life.

I’ve been very lucky that I’ve fully recovered physically (well, 99% anyway) but I’m left feeling I can’t be bothered about doing anything.  I’m just managing to keep on top of projects I have with current clients but that’s about it.  My writing has gone by the board, my paperwork is in a mess and all I want to do is read (my preferred avoidance tactic).

Luckily for me a friend has invited me to work through Julia Cameron’s 12 week course, “The Artist’s Way”, with her and we started last night.  We both did this 10 years ago and I have a vague recollection of really enjoying the process, so I’m pinning my hopes on this being the kick-start I need to get my creative juices flowing again.  I know from experience that when that happens, everything else in my life flows more easily too.  Here are some of the things that seem like they’re impossible to achieve at the moment:

  • Getting to the bottom of the ironing basket. Self-talk: lazy, useless, who cares anyway
  • Updating my financial records for the Accountant so he can put in my tax return early for once.  It would be so good not to get that letter from the ATO saying that I have a deadline;
  • Finishing the first edit and re-write of the first draft of my novel.  What on earth is stopping me?

I really hope that this course will help break me out of the cycle of blah that I’m stuck in right now.

Please share if you have any tips that work for you when you can’t seem to get out of your own way.

© Jane Gillespie 2013